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It's here. The presents are stacked high around our (puny) tree, Christmas music is blaring in my ears, and I'm sitting in the living room surrounded by my siblings and cousins who've come home to celebrate with us. We've been to Christmas recitals and concerts, Christmas services at our church, Christmas parties and open houses. And amidst the hustle and bustle I keep hearing the same thing I hear every year-- "Are we missing it? Are we missing what Christmas is really about?"

And sitting here, listening to Celtic Women and the laughter and chatter of my family-- I don't think I have. I don't think I'm missing it.

It's been a bit over two thousand years, now, since Mary and Joseph arrived in Bethlehem and the greatest gift of all time was given to the world. Two thousand years since the angels appeared to the shepherds-- the poor, ordinary, nothing-special-at-all shepherds-- and sang praises to God.

"Behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people."

Two thousand years later, I'm still feeling the joy-- the result of Christ's birth. Two thousand years wasn't enough to kill the joy or change the meaning of that gift.

Before Christ's coming, the only hope for salvation was following the strict Jewish law and offering frequent sacrifices at the temple. Before Christ's coming, a personal, close relationship with the Lord was only for the few, the favoured-- people like Enoch and Elijah. Before Christ's coming, it was ridiculously hard for a Gentile, like me, to find favour with God.

But that all changed when Jesus was born.

"For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, who is Christ the Lord."

Jesus was born to rescue mankind from their sin and suffering. Jesus was born to fulfil the law and the prophets as the one true Messiah. Jesus was born to save us. No wonder the message the angels brought was of joy and peace and good will!

Christmas is a celebration of that joy. At Christmas we remember how Jesus was born, and how Jesus died, and how Jesus rose again from the dead, breaking the chains of sin and death that held us in slavery before. At Christmas we celebrate the story that never loses its power, even after two thousand years.

At Christmas we should join the angels in singing, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth, peace, good will to men!"

I don't think I'm missing it right now. Right now, I'm feeling that joy.

Are you?

Have a great Christmas, everybody!

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THIS IS A TEST POST.

So-- technically, my NaNoWriMo WIP has still not reached "The End". (No, surprise, surprise, I did NOT finish it in the first week, as I was hoping.) But I've still been wretchedly wrenched back to reality and the fact that very soon I am going to have to edit this thing (ahh!!!) by the new Beautiful Books link-up: the editing process.
In case you weren't here the first two times, Beautiful Books is a blog link-up event hosted by Cait @ Paper Fury and Sky @ Further Up and Further In in which bloggers everywhere weep and flail over their half baked NaNo novels. It is lovely, and you should do it-- but this is your last chance! This is the last Beautiful Books link-up for the year! Which is very sad, but I believe they will be picking up Beautiful People again, so there's that.

1. On a scale of 1 (worst) to 10 (best), how did the book turn out? Did anything defy your expectations?

We'll call it a 8. It needs a lot of work, yes, but overall, I am very, very happy with my new novel, and I basically love it to death. (Yes! This is the definition of success in my world!) I'm shaking at the thought of editing, at which point I will rediscover all it's weakest points and decide I detest it after all, but until I get there, I'm going to let myself love it as much as I can.

As for expectations, I don't actually remember most of my expectations for the thing before I started it, but I do know that all my characters are completely different from how I originally envisioned them. Also, it wasn't supposed to have a body count. It really wasn't. And yet here I'm left weeping on a blood stained battlefield, the bodies of the heroic dead strewn around me--

Ahem. Forgive me for waxing lyrical. Point being. People died. Good people, bad people, they all died. Though to be honest, even back when I was conceiving this thing, I knew myself well enough to suspect that the "no body count" thing might not last long.

2. Comparative title time: what published books, movies, or TV shows are like your book?

Eh-- I don't really know?? My book is urban fantasy/paranormal/supernatural/whatever you want to call it, and I don't read or watch a lot in that genre. (I'm probably going to have to change that.) I did feed myself a sporadic diet of Supernatural fan videos for "research" while I was writing it, so it probably bears some resemblance to that, though I haven't seen the show itself and really couldn't say.

Otherwise, for you Doctor Who fans, I'd describe it as "Silence in the Library" meets "Flatline", with a bit of "Fear Her". (Wow, that just made it sound even creepier than it actually is. o.o)

3. Do you enjoy working with deadlines and pressure (aka NaNoWriMo)? Or do you prefer to write-as-you're-inspired?

Deadlines and pressure, definitely. If I don't have some kind of pressure, I don't get anything done. Anything. For most things in life, that pressure is my Mom. For writing, it's NaNoWriMo. (This is also why we need a National Novel Editing Month-- I have a feeling I would get editing done much quicker and easier.)

In theory, write-as-you're-inspired sounds pretty appealing-- especially for an overly independent, "forget rules and regulations!" type of person like me. But since inspiration rarely lasts as long as it takes to write a novel, I simply can't run that way.

4. How do you go about editing? Give us an insight into your editing process.

Step 1: Cry and eat chocolate.
Step 2: Read through novel. (More tears and chocolate involved.)
Step 3: Get ready to edit and freak out. (More tears and chocolate...)
Step 4: Try to edit and panic. (More tears... More chocolate...)
Step 5: Throw computer at the wall and scream. (... You know the drill.)

I haven't really gotten much further than this in the process at any point in any book. Usually I just give up and do another rewrite, because while those are more labour intensive, at least I know what I'm doing. Editing I have no idea. Someday I am determined to actually sit down and make myself edit until I get it right.
Sorry. Couldn't resist.

5. What aspect of your story needs the most work?

The Shadow's back story, probably. There's this creepy shadow monster who's killing my MC and is planning to take over the world or something (I should probably mention that I haven't mentioned even this in the book, so far-- it, too, will have to be inserted during edits), but I never actually told the readers what it is or where it came from. I know what it is (ha ha-- kinda-sorta-not-really), but the readers kinda have to know as well. But it's rather difficult to explain when the entire book is written from the POV of a character who probably wouldn't know where the thing came from.

So yeah-- lots of tweaking will go down in this area.

6. What aspect of your story did you love the most?

I've said it many times, and I'll say it again-- my MC, Rae. I totally adore her, and she really makes the story for me.

Aside from that, however, the theme of my story is extremely important to me as well. I didn't really have a big theme in mind when I started writing, but I did plan for friendship to be important aspect from the beginning, and it really just snowballed from there. From the verging on abusive relationship between Rae and her Shadow, Rae's third wheel position in her friendship with Micah and Glenn, the growth of her friendships with Chloe and Darryl, and even the relationships with her various family members, by the end of the month, it was obvious that the real point of the story was the difference between healthy friendships and unhealthy ones.

7. Give us a brief run down on your main characters and how you think they turned out. Do you think they'll need changes in edits?

This is going to take a while. Just so you're forewarned.
Rae is snarky, practical, and pretty much my exact opposite. She's an ISTJ and has a certain structured, disciplined approach to life that I really appreciate and don't relate to at all. She's funny. She's quirky. She pretends to be a lot more chill than she actually is. And she's a bit more emotional than her personality warrants, which I need to change when I do the rewrites.

Micah is my ENFP (yay!) goof-ball. He shakes things up, keeps it fun, and never answers his texts. Sometimes it may seem like he doesn't care about anything but having fun, but he can be quite sweet when he remembers to be, and he genuinely cares about his friends-- and just about everyone else, too. So far, I don't think he needs to change much.

Glenn is an ISFJ-- reliable, loyal, and just an all around nice guy. But underneath his sweetness, he's all too capable of taking care of himself and his friends, and no one enjoys being on his bad side. He's the middle ground in the trio-- the balance between Micah's goof-ball carelessness and Rae's sarcasm and discipline. During edits, I plan to make him a more prominent and defined character, since the others kinda stole his glamour in the first draft.

I keep going back and forth on whether Chloe is an ESTP or an ESFP, but one thing is certain-- she loves people and she has absolutely no fear. (Wait, that was two things.) She's a little bit crazy, a little more sweet, and a whole lot of fun. That being said, her character and especially her relationship with Rae needs a lot of work, because I really didn't know what I was doing when I wrote her.

Darryl, Chloe's brother, was a weird one to write. He's an INFJ-- empathetic, intuitive, and relational. He's good at interpreting people-- especially their emotions-- and he notices a lot more than he gets credit for. But do you have any idea how hard it is to write a male INFJ? He's cute, but he honestly doesn't make a ton of sense to me, and he needs a lot of work.

Sophie is Rae's older sister, and a very lovely person, even if Rae doesn't always recognize it. She's an ESFJ. She's a girly girl. She likes boyfriends and make up and little frilly skirts. She doesn't understand Rae at all, and sometimes she gets annoyed at her, but she loves her a lot and tries to be the good sister. I really like her, and I don't think there's too much that needs to change-- other than the fact that she kinda disappeared from the story for about twenty chapters, somewhere in there.

Emma, Rae's little sister, honestly got pushed to back stage while I was writing the first draft, a fact I really regret, now that I've gotten to know her. Since I wasn't planning for her to be very important, I didn't really develop her personality much-- I kinda wrote her to be the stereotypical annoying little sister and the also stereotypical awkward tweenager, and left it at that. But then I ended up really liking her, and-- I wish I'd made her more prominent and consistent. So that's what I'll be doing in the edits.

So-- that might not have been brief. Sorry.

8. What are your plans for this novel once you finish editing? More edits? Finding beta readers? Querying? Self publishing? Hiding in a dark hole forever?

Plans? HA. Who do you think I am?

In theory, I will edit it until I'm not horribly embarrassed by it, then let 2 or 3 or 20 people read it as alpha and beta and gamma readers, then edit it some more and some more and some more and maybe someday it will satisfy me enough that I can go out and see about publishing this thing.

Maybe. Someday. Keywords here.

9. Share a favourite snippet!

I've already shared my favourite snippet, so we'll go with this one, just because it's short.
Micah steps through the gate to the fortress, Chloe close on his heels and Darryl sauntering a few steps behind.

“Hey guys!” says Micah, and the look on his face beyond the smile says, “just wait-- I promise I’m not crazy.”

The problem is, Glenn and I both know that Micah is totally, undeniably, hopelessly crazy. It’s just a matter of what new turn his insanity has taken.
So we smile politely and prepare ourselves for the worst few hours of our lives. 

10.  What are your writing goals and plans for 2016?

Again with the plans thing? *nervous grin*

I hope to have the first draft of Shadowwhisper 100% done by Christmas, after which point I will take a break until the New Year. In January, I'll probably focus in on Splitting Atoms rewrites, trying to get that in some semblance of order and distract my brain before taking up Shadowwhisper edits in February. After that I'll probably just go back and forth between the two novels, rewriting and editing whichever I feel in the mood for. April and July I plan to participate in CampNaNoWriMo, and I've got a couple plot bunnies on the brain, plus the Splitting Atoms sequel I've been wanting to write forever. November I hope I'll be able to do NaNoWriMo again.

So that's kinda the idea, but I probably won't stick to it too closely. I'm really bad at sticking to things, as you probably know by now.
Shut up, yes I can.
How did your novel turn out? Does anyone else know how this editing thing works? What lies in store for you and your story, this New Year?

Is Your Story Worth It? (Test Post)

TEST POST


(So this post is going up late, but better late than never.)
Something I keep hearing over and over again at this time of year is "NaNoWriMo makes you write a bad story."

And this makes me sad. It makes me sad because it's a lie. It makes me sad because it scares people. And it makes me sad because just about this time in the month, when my motivation has dried up, my plot disappeared, and every word I write looks like trash, I start believing it's true.

Maybe you're there, too. Maybe you're wondering why you ever thought this NaNo thing was a good idea. Maybe you're wondering how 50,000 words written in a 30 day lapse of sanity, powered by coffee and chocolate, can ever become something beautiful.

For you, the fearful, the discouraged, I have a question.

Is your story worth it?

That's really the standard here. It doesn't matter whether you write a novel in 30 days or 30 years. It doesn't matter whether the first draft is spotless or a complete garbage dump. It doesn't matter how long it is, how old you are, how much experience you have-- what matters is is it worth it?

Why are you writing this story? Why does it matter? Why did you originally fall in love with this idea? Maybe you have a message you want to share with the world. That matters. Maybe you wanted to prove to yourself or somebody else that you could do it-- you could write a novel! That's important. Maybe you're just doing it for fun, because it seemed like a cool thing to do. That's worth it, too. 

There are any number of reasons you started writing this month, and believe me, whatever it was that got you started, it was worth it. It was worth starting, it was worth getting those words on the page.

And now you get to decide. Is it worth finishing? Or, to put it another way, is it so utterly worthless that you could actually bring yourself to give up now? Do you love your characters that little? Is your message of so little importance to you? Do you really want to miss out on this opportunity to write a real book-- or at least give it your best shot? Are you really happy with giving up?

There's a reason writers (and other artists!) experience fear. We're writers! We live scary lives! We put so much of ourselves on paper-- all our talent, or lack of it, so much of what we believe, so much of what we love, so much of everything that matters to us. And for many of us, we've defined success as having someone else read that piece of paper, which has so much of our identities wrapped up in it, and actually like it.

And if they don't?

As writers, we can't afford to be afraid. We can't afford to doubt ourselves. We can't afford insecurity. Because as soon as we let the fear creep in, our entire way of life is in danger. Once the doubt takes hold, it's far, far too easy for us to give up. And so we don't let ourselves be scared. We give ourselves anti-fear pep talks. We tell ourselves that we're doing great.

And then somebody walks in and says that NaNoWriMo can only produce a bad story. And then we start to believe him.
Now, does NaNoWriMo make you write a bad story? Here's the hard answer: yes. But not in the way people say it does. Every story you write is going to be a bad story. I'm sorry. It is going to be. No story starts out perfect. First drafts are ugly. But that doesn't mean you should give up.

Something my pastor says all the time is, "If something is worth doing, it's worth doing poorly." If your story is worth writing, it's worth writing in 30 days and making a mess of. It's worth trying to write in 30 days and failing miserably. It's worth never participating in NaNo and taking years to complete. It's worth never completing at all. It's worth it.

NaNo doesn't have to make you write a good story. The beauty of NaNo is that it motivates you to write a story, no matter how sucky it may seem. You wrote something. Maybe 50k of sparkling, witty genius. Maybe 100 words of dry, worthless mediocrity. It doesn't matter, because you wrote something.

Is you story is worth it? If so, don't let anyone tell you your doing it wrong.

Why did you start writing your story? If you're doing NaNo, how's it going?

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